When I realize that I have brought something new into the world, I can tell myself again that I am not a fraud. In this piece I am using a combination of two opposites, the seductive and the repulsive, to create something new. It's not a story cloth really. There is no meaning other than an artwork charged with energy. My thoughts come and go so quickly yet the work progresses slowly. I'm faster than me. The threads and fabrics are familiar things used in an unfamiliar way. What is usually used to make a neat seam or a mended pocket, is used here in a messy and raveled manner. An affront to what is expected, but like a storm we want to watch, it gives a bit of a thrill. We want to touch it to see if it's true. The work starts to invent itself. It's not that I lose control, but things happen that although interesting are not my original idea. It's as if I'm ordered to do something that doesn't come from me. In this piece I am working from the back, which gives me some control. There has to be order, even though I am using cut bits of threads and frayed cloth which are couched and then covered with snugly pulled running stitch. I am always working from both sides. beautiful - ugly control - lack of control shape - line order - chaos front - back fast - slow Working with opposites is what drives me to continue with the making over a period of months. For me it's exciting to see the messiness under my control. Untidiness is the subject. That's interesting. The smoother side is a bit too charming, but it is the result of that raw inner making. I try to give my work that extra edge.